A Song I Can Relate To

                                                    "Long Distance by Megan and Liz"

I heard you were just passing through
I never meant to get attached to you
The day we met - I still hold onto
It was out of the blue
You played a show
And we locked eyes, by the stereo
I fell into your eyes so blue

No matter how it goes, goes, goes
I just want you to know, know, know
I'm reminiscing, thinking about us kissing
Now could you take, take, take the million miles away, way, way?
It's you I'm missing
In this long distance

We keep in touch, though out of reach
I almost wish we didn't meet
It's not enough to keep a romance sweet
I was out of my mind to let you in
I should have thought of you as just a friend
But now you're got me right until the end

No matter how it goes, goes, goes
I just want you to know, know, know
I'm reminiscing, thinking about us kissing
Now could you take, take, take the million miles away, way, way?
It's you I'm missing
In this long...

But it makes a good story anyway
All the memories created in one day
I guess they found a place to stay
So we're keeping up with this phone tag
Missing messages and signs that we're not okay
Just pretend you feel the same

That no matter how it goes, goes, goes
I just want you to know, know, know
I'm reminiscing, thinking about us kissing
Now could you take, take, take the million miles away, way, way?
It's you I'm missing
In this long distance

Finally I have a song I can fully relate to, not that I'm proud of it. This song definitely speaks for me. This is how I felt and still feel up until now. I tried having a boyfriend for the very first time at the age of nineteen. It was a really great experience I learned a lot and got to experience my first kiss after years of waiting and wondering when I would do it. However it did not last long enough which hurts the most. Things just got messy and I lost control and did things to mess everything up. It was my first time and it did not go how I expected it to be. I spent 1 month with him having those late night phone calls, lunch dates, strolling around the parks and looking at the most amazing views I've ever seen. 

We met in the summer after being away for nearly three years he showed me a different side of London.  I got to explore London with him and I even got to learn a lot from him. After that perfect 1 month that I got to spend with him everything went downfall. We tried the long distance, my first time to have something as close to a relationship and it HAD to be long distance. We didn't know each other well enough, I didn't know anything about being in a relationship or rather I did but I was not experienced enough. Yes it was hard! Waking up early while for him staying up late, skyping and messaging through what's app. That was our way of communicating, but it was hard! It meant no sleep and sacrificing our sleep for each other, though it never felt like a sacrifice. 

However after a while it was not the same any more. I lost his trust and we were having doubts and everything was just a mess. So we are now left with just being friends, keeping in contact. What happens next? I don't know. This stuff is not easy, this stuff actually hurts.


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