Midnight Thoughts

I wish someone would reply back to me

I want a message, a sign, an answer, anything really

To make this feeling go away

To make everything okay

I could write everything I think

Everything I feel

But then I have to sleep soon

Also my wrists will hurt

I will damage my wrists by typing too much about my feelings than for academic reasons

Oh damn this life

I love my life, don’t get me wrong

But there are so many things I want to do but I am not able to do

I’m still not strong enough

I am still weak

I am not there yet

Does this mean I haven’t worked hard enough?

Does this mean I am lazy?

What do I have to do?

Do I do it on my own?

Do I seek for help?

This is life is crazy

But I can cope with it

I can manage