"I have the strength to face all conditions by the power that Christ give me"- Philippians 4: 13-14 

My Sister and I

My sister and I...don't always get along

One quiet, one loud

Both weak but strong

My sister and I...use to hate each other

Separated, far far away

Together we grow strong

My sister and I...oh how I miss her

You know that feeling where you have so much anger you just want to hit something. I feel that. It runs through my vains, through to the very tip of my nerves. I was once friends with the enemy and now all hell breaks lose. People will get what they deserve. People will learn there lessons.


"Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change." 
James Russell Lowell 
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To Study or Not to Study

Right now I should be sleeping. Tomorrow I have no class which means a long weekend for me. I have so much to do. I just don't want to sleep because if I do the day ends and that means everything will just fly by again. I always get left behind by time, everything feels like it just happened. I can't even believe I made it to 2nd sem. I failed 2 subjects I knew I wouldn't pass everything in fact I was expecting to get kicked out. But I have such strong faith I was like "God wouldn't do that to me." I prayed so hard...the thing I always pray for is that I graduate from UST as a journalism student. I find it so hard to study I don't care about my grades I just care whether or not I pass or fail all of my subjects. Its so hard for me to get super high grades, the only thing I believe in is that I will graduate.

Since I was a child I could never imagine life without graduating. All I want to do is graduate and I will be so happy. It will be the biggest achievement for me. For anyone it should be the best thing that could happen as other people don't have the opportunity to study or they just give up. They don't want to study. I don't like studying but I want to graduate. I just wish I had inspiration...

“We do what we have to so we can do what we want to” 

― James Farmer

Keep Calm Keep Calm Keep Calm

I haven't been able to sleep in days. I have so much on my mind that doesn't need to be. I really need to find a way to relax. To chill. To not think about anything. Just something small can make me crazy I hate it. I wish it would all change, I wish I would learn to stay calm and not to worry. I really wish I could do that. It might not show on the outside but on the inside its like water boiling! I feel like I'm going crazy; I have nothing to worry about at all. 

Everythings the way it should be. I won't change a thing but yet I can't cope with the situation so where does it leave me? What am I supposed to do? How do people get rid of stress, this life is crazy how do people keep up with it. I really admire those who study, study, study non-stop. I admire those who just get high grades in general. 

"Sometimes you have to face the dark side so you can see the light up ahead."

It never ends...

Try getting this far? Try being in my shoes? You never really do know what people feel unless you're in their shoes. You might be able to relate but you will never feel what they feel. Getting this far I can't imagine going back. This is it. This is what I've wanted I travelled this far. I left family, friends and easy and comfortable life. Now I am busy I have so much in my life but I feel like something is missing. I know that I am blessed, I have everything I need but not everything I want. I am mess but I am holding it in. 

I travelled from England to the Philippines I am here without my mum and friends. I stay in a dorm where I find it hard to adjust; to sleep, to eat, to study. I miss having someone to talk with. Life to me is nothing without conversations, with people to talk to, with people to just be with.

One thing I hate most is being alone. I can be alone and I can be independant but what is life when you're spending it alone. Life to me is about sharing moments, sharing you're feelings, sharing knowledge, sharing your experiences.

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. " -One Tree Hill 

All I need is a little company

I want someone to talk to I miss those times when I had heart to heart conversations with my friends. I miss the times when I could cry on the phones to my friends and they'll tell me everything will be ok. 

"Sometimes getting what you want makes you miss what you left behind."

What keeps me here

The weekend is what I always look forward to be home with family in a bed thats comfortable in a house full of memories. The most simplest things can make me happy because we should just appreciate everythings that comes our way. Wherever I go I've never been alone. I always have someone to talk, text or call. I am never alone. 

I enjoy my life and am happy with everything. Yes it is hard to be strong, to keep on going. I am still here. I will always be here. The dreams that I have are so close. I want them so bad I am prepared to take on anything.

Staying in a dorm is like hell. But I hold my breath and can manage it. Day by day I count down but I keep on trying. Giving all I can. Giving all I have. 

"Sometimes it's hard to see the lines we've drawn. Until we cross them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back. And give us something to hold on to." -Gossip Girl 

So the story of my life goes...

So the story of my life...never stops. I will always be here standing strong. Being blessed is what makes my life the way it is. 

"A dream is like sky diving...hold me back and ill never experience it hold me back and I may regret it." -Elizabeth Jackson