A life full of fairytales and happiness

I am a positive person. I live by the words LOVE.LIVE.LIFE from my favourite group N-Dubz. I am happy with my life and I'm thankful too. I am thankful for everything that has been given to me. But here I am waiting; waiting for that special someone. I wonder when I will get to experience falling and being in love. I want to experience anything and everything. Anything to teach me everything to make me stronger. Oh I can't for that day where someone will love me and show me that love of theirs. Even though I know I'll get hurt one day...it's the experience that counts! The experience which will show me the right way the next time around. I don't ever have regrets; I live a fairytale where there is always a bright side.

Kyss Me @ 18

After 3 hours of sleep and then a 6 hours of class, with just 1 hour break I had another fun experience. After being picked up I ate with family together with friends. A dinner full of food! After each dish came another one! But I was so excited I only put on a spoonful of each dish onto my plate. Followed by that we went to the condo to get ready. It took us TWO hours to get ready. Where one of my friends did all of our hair and make-up. We decided to go to Kyss around 11pm, sadly we were the ones who seemed to open up the club. We chose to drink Tequila Rose I didn't know what to drink. All I wanted was a cocktail, something that I've never tried before. After years of beer I wanted something different I wanted to drink something, classy and girlie. I no longer wanted something cheap or usual. the club started to fill up with koreans around 1am. Sadly not many people joined. K-pop was being played all night, the music was okay though. But the Koreans seemed to have their own dance moves. I was expecting wild, vulgour and people grinding against each other. I experienced none of that. It was ok! I didn't mind, I got to see what a club was like and I got to step foot in one. Now I can be more prepared to enter other clubs in the future.

Goodbye Flats Hello Stilletos

I'm 18 now and I am so proud of where I am and who I am. I've been through ups and downs. But I've risen from them; I've chosen to learn from all the mistakes I've made and from the mistakes of others. I've been unlucky with love but I have learned to appreciate the love I do have with family and friends. I let go of the bad and kept the good. I stay away from haters and enemies. I choose my friends wisely; I learn from them and treat them as family. I keep my friends close to my heart. To me, friends are next in line to my family. I have friends who are part of my life and life without them wouldn't be the same.

I've learned to; stand on my own feet, think on my own and to walk on my own.

The main lesson I learned, just like everyone says is to follow your dreams. Don't turn around, believe in yourself and just keep on moving forward. I've been hurt and stepped on but every time I get back up. Even though I act like a child I feel as if I'm strong enough. I feel as if I can't give up, I can't throw away my dreams. Otherwise what's the point if I don't get anywhere. I would be a disappointment to myself.

So here I am standing getting stronger and stronger every time. I've been lucky and blessed I don't know if I deserve it, but I appreciate it and I make the most of the life that I do have.

Two More Days To Go

15th birthday back in 2009 when I was still in London

16th birthday back in 2010, my last birthday celebration in London

Here I am now two more days to go and I will turn 18. Back in London I was used to waking up on a school day (as my birthday would always hit a weekday). I would wake up to find a banner and all my gifts layed out. It was always done by mum she lay all my presents out with the banner. I would always be excited to see this even though it was just twice she did this it always made me feel special. My mum had made an effort, especially as I had loads of presents. It showed how many people remembered my birthday! I used to always love the gifts I was given usually because I asked for it. However no matter what I would recieve I would be over the moon with it. 

Even though my birthday is not until saturday I decided to treat my friends to BonChons. I know that that is their favourite restaurant as that is where we always eat after p.e. I was so excited when there were loads of free spaces I was pushing the door that I was supposed to pull. We had a great time! I nearly felt like crying as they surprised me with a cake. That was the best bit. I wasn't expecting anything in return but it made me think no matter where I go I am blessed with friends. I wasn't expecting to do that. I felt even closer to them and it felt so good to be surprised especially with cake. I'm super excited to have cake on my birthday I guess I had it earlier this time around.

Back in London I would wake up with that surprise. Here in the Philippines it's different. I would have less presents. But I remember last year... I first went to eat at a Japanese restaurant with my cousins friends and my auntie where we they gave me french macaroons. That was the first part. The second part I spent it with my family; my cousins, my auntie and uncle. We went to eat out in a Italian restaurant with cupcakes as birthday a cake, followed by a movie. I then went shopping with my auntie, just me and her. It's so different to what I used to experience in London. 

Our family tradition for anyone's birthday back in London was KFC, with pancit (noodles) and cake. We would all take pictures and eat together. That was the best. However I have learnt to adapt and just take in different ways of celebrating my birthday. No matter what it is though I always have the best time because I always have those special people there celebrating it with me. I say everyday to my self that I am super blessed... and I can wish for nothing more! 

Finally found you

I liked his music back then and I like his music now. Growing up I used to listen to him in the car due to my mum being a lover of his songs. That was what she played every time to his songs, which made me used to listening to his song. Don't get me wrong I did like his songs, but as getting older I developed a crush on him. Not only has he always made good songs back now and then, he's so HOT! I've never not liked any of his songs. Not because of the way he looks, but because his songs has meaning to it. I remember in Hong Kong I watched on MTV how he developed into such a great artist. How his songs have changed to adapt to the audience that he performs to. He hasn't gone wrong. Not even once... from my point of view that is .

McFly!!!!!

It's so good to hear them sing again. I wasn't a super huge fan but I did listen to them and I did like their songs. But if I had to pick between them and lets say One Direction I would pick McFly although they are a different genre. McFly are my cup of coffee. This song is different to what they used to sing before. But I guess the music industry has changed so I guess they had to change their type of music too. But it's good! I actually like this song; it's what I'm looking for.

Republiq @ 18

I've been looking forward to going clubbing since I was 15 and I'm super excited for next week. Hopefully I actually get to step foot in Republiq. Hopefully my friends and I get in. Me definetly as I am the legal age. I can't believe I am saying that! But yes I will be legal to go to clubs and drink next saturday WOO!!!

Dream Away

Preface

He held me. Just standing there saying our goodbyes. He was just exagerating; we would see each other soon. Letting go wasn't hard because I was leaving. I wasn't throwing away our past or what we had together. As we let go I trailed along to the boarding gate. I don't know what I want. I don't know where I'm going. Though all I know is that ever since I could think I didn't want to be here in London.

I want to travel...

I want to experience...


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What do I do now...

No more free time, yet I'm sitting here wasting the free time I do have. I'm nearly 18 and I still feel and act like a 13 year old. I feel I haven't lived my life like I should. Although I made my own decision and travelled so far I still feel like this isn't enough...
                                           

                                             What do I do now...

For the Love of Family

And I only know one love

To love deeply and unconditionally

It happens, right befor your eyes

Now its my family, I love


Not those who were once strangers

Not those who just appeared

But those who came and never left

But those who stayed and never turned around

Now its my family, I love


I will never feel something missing

Because everything's here

The love that my heart holds

Is nothing compared to others

Now its my family, I love


So here I am crying my eyes out. Why do I always look for a boyfriend. A boy that can love me. Why do I always look for a boyfriend. A boy that can love me. Why do I always look for inspiration? Speaking to my grandma on the phone made me feel so loved. Through everything I've been through my friends have been there but my grandma has been there as a role model as someone who has never given up on me. She keeps me going. She keeps me strong. You know that feeling where someone loves you so much that you don't know what to do in return. That when a loved one gets hurt all you care about is that they will be ok and happy. And your views about that person who hurt your loved one deeply has changed so deeply.

There is one thing I've learnt about being in the Philippines and that is the value of family. I thought about myself and now all I think about is them. I don't like seeing my sister get hurt or hear my grandma crying. I want to do so many things I don't want anyone involved. Sometimes you don't know who you can trust. Sometimes you don't know who's really there.

I want to save them from the pain. I want to be there and make everything ok.

My Sister and I

My sister and I...don't always get along

One quiet, one loud

Both weak but strong

My sister and I...use to hate each other

Separated, far far away

Together we grow strong

My sister and I...oh how I miss her

You know that feeling where you have so much anger you just want to hit something. I feel that. It runs through my vains, through to the very tip of my nerves. I was once friends with the enemy and now all hell breaks lose. People will get what they deserve. People will learn there lessons.


"Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change." 
James Russell Lowell 
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They don't know about us - One Direction

"People say we shouldn’t be together

We're too young to know about forever

But I say they don’t know what they talk talk talkin’ about

(Talk talk talkin’ about)

Cause this love is only getting stronger

And I don’t wanna wait any longer

I just wanna tell the world that your mine 

Girl

Oh

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

One touch and I was a believer

Every day gets a little sweeter

It’s getting better

Keeps getting better all the time girl

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/one_direction/they_dont_know_about_uThey don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know how special you are

They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart

They can say anything they want

Cause they don’t know about us

They don’t know what we do best

That’s between me and you our little secret

But I wanna tell 'em

I wanna tell the world that your mine girl

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

(Feels so right)

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all of my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know about us"

                             Lyricsmode.com

I love this song! I wish I could relate to it though. Sadly I don't have a love life and I don't know when I will have one. I guess I'm the opposite to attraction... I repel guys away from me. But you know what life is good. I am blessed with family, great friends, a good school, education. That is everything that I need. I feel like I am always blessed as I am healthy and I have people there for. I've never been alone. I have felt alone before but the when I turn around there will always be someone there for me. 

To Study or Not to Study

Right now I should be sleeping. Tomorrow I have no class which means a long weekend for me. I have so much to do. I just don't want to sleep because if I do the day ends and that means everything will just fly by again. I always get left behind by time, everything feels like it just happened. I can't even believe I made it to 2nd sem. I failed 2 subjects I knew I wouldn't pass everything in fact I was expecting to get kicked out. But I have such strong faith I was like "God wouldn't do that to me." I prayed so hard...the thing I always pray for is that I graduate from UST as a journalism student. I find it so hard to study I don't care about my grades I just care whether or not I pass or fail all of my subjects. Its so hard for me to get super high grades, the only thing I believe in is that I will graduate.

Since I was a child I could never imagine life without graduating. All I want to do is graduate and I will be so happy. It will be the biggest achievement for me. For anyone it should be the best thing that could happen as other people don't have the opportunity to study or they just give up. They don't want to study. I don't like studying but I want to graduate. I just wish I had inspiration...

“We do what we have to so we can do what we want to” 

― James Farmer

Lets fall in love all the time!

From the movie A Cinderella Story: Once Upon a Song. Its the second time I've watched this movie. I watched it today with my dorm mate. We were screaming, giggling and pinching eachother. This movie was released in 2011 but I only found out about it on sunday when I watched it on HBO. It's now officially one of my favourite adaptations of Cinderella. I love the story. I love the leading man...Freddie Stroma. I love the leading lady. I love the movie.

I really love movies which can make me laugh, cry, cringe 'kilig,' and feel like I'm falling in love. Its as if you're the leading girl in the movie that's what I love. I've never been in love but I imagine being in love every time I watch movies like this. I could watch it over and over again.

I picked this song as it is one of my favourite songs from the soundtrack. It's so sweet and makes you want to live your dreams. Especially when I found this video.
(November 07, 2012)

Elixr

I am a huge fan of Hilary Duff! I absolutely loved her, she was my idol back when I was a child. So I was really excited to see she had written a book. I started the book during my 1st sem at college but then I was too busy and had so  much to do. I planned on saving it for sem break. Even though I started it during school days I read it from the beginning again, it was a bit of a drag as it is a slow book so I didn't think I would finish it. But then I kept thinking this book was written by my idol so I had to finish it and when I got further into the book... I began to fall in love with it! I loved it! I could actually imagine it being made into a movie; it had such a good story I loved it! I want the second book I regret not buying it. I didn't buy it because I thought I wouldn't finish the first book.

:(

Dammit! Back to school tomorrow. I don't mind the whole going back to school tomorrow but back to my dorm today. I really don't want. I hate being alone...so I brand along a few movies. Like 5 movies just so that I won't get lonely. It's going to be hell later I can actually feel tears coming down, though I know it will burst out later when I'm in my dorm. So pray for me! I really wish my dorm had sockets it would make me happier I wouldn't  mind going back. But I'm on the 6th floor while the internet room/charging room is on the ground floor. Which I really hate! I don't like it! I just wish magically they would allow sockets back into the rooms.

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Let's SCREEEEEAM 1-2-3-4!!!

After watching Saw I finally feel I can stomach anything with blood and goaaaar! Scream is now one of my favorite movies it didn't scare me it actually made me laugh I remember when I was a child I used to dread Scream it was one of the scariest moves I had ever seen. But I finished all four in 2 days and I was able to sleep perfectly, it didnt effect me one bit!

SUN + SEA + SAND = THE LIFE

Taken in Coron, Palawan 

Four days of Swimming, snorkeling, eating and about of alcohol too. It was one of the best experiences were I finally went into the sea with out a life vest where I was taking in the colorful and most beautiful view of all the different types of fishes gliding through the deep blue sea. I could see it all and as usual it felt like a dream. I remember just floating above them watching the live their everyday lives. I didnt want to leave! I wanted to be a fish!
(October 26th -29th 2012) 

Vicky Christina Barcelona

Well this was one of the weirdest movies I've ever watched. A movie about one single woman and one engaged woman both best friends on a trip. A man they meet both come in between their love lives where both girls fall in love with him as they both follow him to go on a trip. The single woman ends up having a relationship however in their relationship the wife of the man is included. Crazy right? During that relationship a threesome is included together with the wife and girl having sex. This was something I've never expected is it because I'm still innocent and I've never been in a relationship, but seriously it makes me wonder if this stuff is real. If it still exists, if people can stomach this kind of relationship, if this is what love really is.
(October 2012) 

Shopping, Sushi, Movie... it's time for sem-break!

It's my first outing with friends during my first ever sem-break here in the Philippines and so I spent it with two of my close friends from the dorm. After picking up my friend from the dorm we withdrew some many, planning on going to Vikings* later on that day. After withdrawing money we went straight to Forever 21, where my friend went shopping while I watched her pick clothes after clothes. You see I'm not a shopper unless it's cheaper clothing. Here in the Philippines I got used to buying cheaper clothes and not clothes from a mall, because sometimes I feel like its a waste to spend money on clothing. Even though I want to; I want to buy expensive clothing when I'm rich!

However that day I decided to spend my money on SUSHI ! Im not a fan of sushi but we had the most amazing sushi ever! We ordered a party size so we had sooooo many different types of sushi it was amazing! Together with salad and tempura...even the tempura tasted good and I hate tempura!

Shopping and sushi didn't yet complete my day. After one of my friends went home me and my other friend went to watch a movie we went to see Taken 2. It wasn't so good. It was such a disappointment I loved the first one it was one of my favorite movies but then Taken 2 was a shocker!
(October 20th 2012) 

I'm so sad to here Gossip Girl is on its final season. I feel like its a part of me. I haven't been watching it since the beginning, in fact I watched it a year after it was aired. I didn't like it at first but when I started watching it I fell in love with it! It is one of the best shows ever. Watching Gossip Girl has made me want to go to New York so badly. This is the life that I want. This is the life I dream of. Nothing can ever replace this tv show, it truly is one of the best tv shows ever. I've always wanted to be part of Gossip Girl. With all the scandals, parties, drinks and shopping.

This is one of the reason I took journalism so that one day I can work in a magazine in New York. Where I get to be on the red carpet interviewing stars. Wearing all the latest clothes in fashion. Thats the life! That will be me my life!

XOXO Ellie

Hong Kong

Another destination

Another experience.

Food.City. Rides.

Here it goes! 

Hong Kong it is! 

The unexpected country,

The unexpected experience. 

Two days after my finals and it doesn't feel like I sat them. I recovered so quickly from exams it's like being in heaven again. Here at the airport I am excited to experience and to see another city. From Las Vegas to L.A. to San Francisco now to Hong Kong. Where else will I go? What else will I see? 

A two hour flight from Manila to Hong Kong. My ears were blocked as soon as the plane was in the air. Every time I go to the Philippines by aeroplane this is exactly what happens. My ears get blocked and I throw up. But hey! So far so good I didn't experience throwing up.  

(October 14th 2012) 

Lets travel the world 

Lets not stay in one place

Explore don't imagine

Explore don't dream

The signs. The roads. Just like England. Arriving at the airport I realized waw! They drive on the same side as England. It was weird to see the cars on the right side of the road again! They even have yellow lines! I miss seeing that yellow line painted along the sides of the roads. 

What have you seen a tourist guide do? Tour you around? Talk endlessly? Well duh! Here in Hong Kong I experienced a tourist guide not only talking but SINGING! Not even in English, Cantonese or Mandarin but TAGALOG!

Gold. Silver. Diamonds. 

Isn't it beautiful. All the sparkles and glistening. As the doors were opened to to the jewellery story I was amazed. It was so amazing. It was so beautiful seeing all the beautiful jewellery outshining everything else. I found out that in Hong Kong Jewellery they make their own jewellery; with real diamonds and real gold. They import it and then they carve and make their own designs. Amazing right?! 

(October17th 2012) 

Bright lights

Glitters in the sky

Thats my game.

Sky high

Big dreams

Thats the life. 

Being able to see a view of the city at night was a beautiful experience. On top of being able to see the fireworks glistening over the Sleeping Beauty's castle. Even though it was the second time to see this it still excites me and makes me feel like I am dreaming. Seeing the city at night makes me want to go to  New York even more. Anywhere where there's lights and tall buildings, I'll be there! 

Hong Kong is a duty free country meaning they have no tax, which is why many people from the Philippines to go there for shopping. The clothes and electronics are way more cheaper. Look here this is all the exports and imports, I've never even seen anything like it before. At first I thought they were building something but then I was told that this is where they keep all the exports and imports. Can you imagine what could be in those containers....bags? clothes? shoes? car parts?
(October 18th 2012)

This guys in love with you mare!

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I watched this movie today and I loved it! It made me laugh so much. I nearly fell in love with Vice kinikilig talaga ako kay Vice! If Vice was a guy he would be my crush...All the way! He was so good looking it was unreal. I think Vice should one day make a movie where he is an actual guy and he's not gay, then that would  mean he's a truly great actor. Vice Ganda is one of my favourite Filipino celebs. He can make everyone smile and laugh. I was thinking while I was watching this movie that I really want to go to Showtime and hopefully get to meet him one day.

Toni Gonzaga is also one of my idols. She can do everything! She can act, sing, host and dance. Isn't she perfect? So I guess this movie was made for me. It was cheesy at times but it didn't bother me it made me smile so that was all I cared about. All in all I enjoyed the movie!

Footloose

I love movies like these! Any movie with a dance theme is a must watch for me! They are movies I could watch over and over again. It makes me jealous; the way they move, the way they feel the music, the way they're so flexible its unreal. I so wish that I could dance like them. Even though I haven't watched the original version I guess I have no right to say much about it but I'm pretty sure I will also like the original. maybe one day I will watch it. But so far this is another one of my favourite movies along with Step Up 3 which I have watched too many times.

LOL

A movie starring Miley Cyrus and Demo Moore, about a teenage girl living a life of pain, happiness, love. A movie thousands of girls can relate to and fall in love with. Showing the connection and development with family and friends. A girl experiencing the things a teenager would maybe experience from fights with her mum to being cheated on. To taking drugs and losing her virginity. A teenage life on the big screen. 

For me it was an all time favourite. A movie where I could cringe, laugh and cry. A perfect movie for me. I fell in love with it from the first scene. Especially with a perfect soundtrack, that you will want to play on repeat. 

Hearts on fire - Jonathan Clay

Somewhere only we know - Keane

Little Sister - Jonathan Clay

Everybody - Ingrid Michaelson

The Big Bang - Rock Mafia ft Miley cyrus

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

One of the most inspiring books I've ever read! I believe that everything happens for a reason and this book backed me up. An old man before reaching heaven is confronted and gets to meet five people in his life; some strangers other family or friends. He is then shown why they entered his life. There are so many things that you can learn from this book. One is that all the people in your life are there for a reason whether they did good or bad to your life...I guess if you look close enough then you can see the real reason other than that just let it be shown to you. Don't go looking for it! 

Ten things we did (and probably shouldn't have)

I remember reading this book and I fell in love! I read this book at first because of the title. There are things we have all done that look back and thing maybe we shouldn't have done that. I have no regrets but sometimes that phrase pops into mind. Just like her we have all done crazy, silly things like lie. Which is something we've all experienced. But its a book that a lot of girls can relate to! Just like the movie LOL. 

Universal Studios: L.A.

If you like Fast and Furious...check this out! 

Disney Land: Castle

San Francisco

I never really wanted to go to SF I wanted to go the Philippines  that year. Every two years we go to the Philippines that was the year we were supposed to go. But no I didn't regret. No it wasn't a waste of time. It was the best!! Going to California made me realize I really want to go to New York, I really want to go Brooklyn and Manhattan. It's a must! 

Las Vegas

Its Las Vegas! Back in 2010 my mum sister and I flew flew to San Francisco then to L.A. then officially driving all the way to Las vegas. It was one of the best experiences ever. I LOVE THE CITY!! With bright lights, tall buildings herds of people and just the atmosphere. it was a memory never to be erased. Although I was still young I enjoyed atmosphere and the scene rather than the heart of Las Vegas...No Drinks, No Parties, No Gambling.

Bohol

Chocolate Hills was one of the places I've always wanted to visit and it was worth it! Though they said its better to go during the rainy season where the hills actually look like chocolates. Ah well! Maybe next time...

Bantanyan Island was so far one of the best beaches I've ever been too! Its known as a virgin island, so white sand, clear blue sea and a scarce number of tourists. 

Sagada

Above are the hanging coffins which is what Sagada is famous for. This is their way of burying people as they believe the way we were born is the way that we die which is in the shape of a fetus; this is why the coffins are quite small. Awesome right?

      Can you believe before entering one of the caves they had coffins in the entrance! Creepy right?

In the mountains they don't have everything we have such as microwaves, ovens and freezers or fridges. So we were shown the improvised way of cooking everyone's favourite...CHICKEN!!! A can was placed on top of the chicken and then was set fire to on the outside so just like an oven it heats whats inside. It was served with fresh tomatoes and onions with no seasoning or toppings. 

Can you believe I actually fit in here? We actually couldn't believe it! But hey anything is possible! For those who are up for anything especially adventures this is the best place to go. 

My first time to see a sunrise it was kind of pretty but for me its a great romantic place so its best to experience with someone special!!