The one to leave or the one to have been left
I can make my own decisions but at times I suffer
This however always makes me become an even better version of myself
This is something I should be proud of
But do I regret these decisions
So far no
I found it so so easy to leave people behind
But I can never find the reason why
I want to be on my own
I have to say I do enjoy being alone sometimes
You can grow and figure things out
You can explore everything on your own
You learn from painful mistakes
But the best bit is I am still standing
But I guess at times it can be selfish
What about all those people I left behind
To be honest I never really thought about them
I thought about myself the whole time
But I need to be selfish at these times
We all have to learn to be on our own
I feel sorry for those I left behind
I missed out on so much
I missed out on the lives of friends and family
When I came back everything was so different
People change, things change
I feel like I am so lucky to still have friends
Friends that still know and remember me despite not keeping in contact with them
I don't want to miss out
I always wanted to have my family and friends by my side wherever I go in life
But yet I leave them behind
When will I ever figure things out
I think I never will
I will always try new things, explore and appreciate what I have in life
