Let's SCREEEEEAM 1-2-3-4!!!

After watching Saw I finally feel I can stomach anything with blood and goaaaar! Scream is now one of my favorite movies it didn't scare me it actually made me laugh I remember when I was a child I used to dread Scream it was one of the scariest moves I had ever seen. But I finished all four in 2 days and I was able to sleep perfectly, it didnt effect me one bit!

SUN + SEA + SAND = THE LIFE

Taken in Coron, Palawan 

Four days of Swimming, snorkeling, eating and about of alcohol too. It was one of the best experiences were I finally went into the sea with out a life vest where I was taking in the colorful and most beautiful view of all the different types of fishes gliding through the deep blue sea. I could see it all and as usual it felt like a dream. I remember just floating above them watching the live their everyday lives. I didnt want to leave! I wanted to be a fish!
(October 26th -29th 2012) 

Vicky Christina Barcelona

Well this was one of the weirdest movies I've ever watched. A movie about one single woman and one engaged woman both best friends on a trip. A man they meet both come in between their love lives where both girls fall in love with him as they both follow him to go on a trip. The single woman ends up having a relationship however in their relationship the wife of the man is included. Crazy right? During that relationship a threesome is included together with the wife and girl having sex. This was something I've never expected is it because I'm still innocent and I've never been in a relationship, but seriously it makes me wonder if this stuff is real. If it still exists, if people can stomach this kind of relationship, if this is what love really is.
(October 2012) 

Shopping, Sushi, Movie... it's time for sem-break!

It's my first outing with friends during my first ever sem-break here in the Philippines and so I spent it with two of my close friends from the dorm. After picking up my friend from the dorm we withdrew some many, planning on going to Vikings* later on that day. After withdrawing money we went straight to Forever 21, where my friend went shopping while I watched her pick clothes after clothes. You see I'm not a shopper unless it's cheaper clothing. Here in the Philippines I got used to buying cheaper clothes and not clothes from a mall, because sometimes I feel like its a waste to spend money on clothing. Even though I want to; I want to buy expensive clothing when I'm rich!

However that day I decided to spend my money on SUSHI ! Im not a fan of sushi but we had the most amazing sushi ever! We ordered a party size so we had sooooo many different types of sushi it was amazing! Together with salad and tempura...even the tempura tasted good and I hate tempura!

Shopping and sushi didn't yet complete my day. After one of my friends went home me and my other friend went to watch a movie we went to see Taken 2. It wasn't so good. It was such a disappointment I loved the first one it was one of my favorite movies but then Taken 2 was a shocker!
(October 20th 2012) 

I'm so sad to here Gossip Girl is on its final season. I feel like its a part of me. I haven't been watching it since the beginning, in fact I watched it a year after it was aired. I didn't like it at first but when I started watching it I fell in love with it! It is one of the best shows ever. Watching Gossip Girl has made me want to go to New York so badly. This is the life that I want. This is the life I dream of. Nothing can ever replace this tv show, it truly is one of the best tv shows ever. I've always wanted to be part of Gossip Girl. With all the scandals, parties, drinks and shopping.

This is one of the reason I took journalism so that one day I can work in a magazine in New York. Where I get to be on the red carpet interviewing stars. Wearing all the latest clothes in fashion. Thats the life! That will be me my life!

XOXO Ellie

Hong Kong

Another destination

Another experience.

Food.City. Rides.

Here it goes! 

Hong Kong it is! 

The unexpected country,

The unexpected experience. 

Two days after my finals and it doesn't feel like I sat them. I recovered so quickly from exams it's like being in heaven again. Here at the airport I am excited to experience and to see another city. From Las Vegas to L.A. to San Francisco now to Hong Kong. Where else will I go? What else will I see? 

A two hour flight from Manila to Hong Kong. My ears were blocked as soon as the plane was in the air. Every time I go to the Philippines by aeroplane this is exactly what happens. My ears get blocked and I throw up. But hey! So far so good I didn't experience throwing up.  

(October 14th 2012) 

Lets travel the world 

Lets not stay in one place

Explore don't imagine

Explore don't dream

The signs. The roads. Just like England. Arriving at the airport I realized waw! They drive on the same side as England. It was weird to see the cars on the right side of the road again! They even have yellow lines! I miss seeing that yellow line painted along the sides of the roads. 

What have you seen a tourist guide do? Tour you around? Talk endlessly? Well duh! Here in Hong Kong I experienced a tourist guide not only talking but SINGING! Not even in English, Cantonese or Mandarin but TAGALOG!

Gold. Silver. Diamonds. 

Isn't it beautiful. All the sparkles and glistening. As the doors were opened to to the jewellery story I was amazed. It was so amazing. It was so beautiful seeing all the beautiful jewellery outshining everything else. I found out that in Hong Kong Jewellery they make their own jewellery; with real diamonds and real gold. They import it and then they carve and make their own designs. Amazing right?! 

(October17th 2012) 

Bright lights

Glitters in the sky

Thats my game.

Sky high

Big dreams

Thats the life. 

Being able to see a view of the city at night was a beautiful experience. On top of being able to see the fireworks glistening over the Sleeping Beauty's castle. Even though it was the second time to see this it still excites me and makes me feel like I am dreaming. Seeing the city at night makes me want to go to  New York even more. Anywhere where there's lights and tall buildings, I'll be there! 

Hong Kong is a duty free country meaning they have no tax, which is why many people from the Philippines to go there for shopping. The clothes and electronics are way more cheaper. Look here this is all the exports and imports, I've never even seen anything like it before. At first I thought they were building something but then I was told that this is where they keep all the exports and imports. Can you imagine what could be in those containers....bags? clothes? shoes? car parts?
(October 18th 2012)

This guys in love with you mare!

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I watched this movie today and I loved it! It made me laugh so much. I nearly fell in love with Vice kinikilig talaga ako kay Vice! If Vice was a guy he would be my crush...All the way! He was so good looking it was unreal. I think Vice should one day make a movie where he is an actual guy and he's not gay, then that would  mean he's a truly great actor. Vice Ganda is one of my favourite Filipino celebs. He can make everyone smile and laugh. I was thinking while I was watching this movie that I really want to go to Showtime and hopefully get to meet him one day.

Toni Gonzaga is also one of my idols. She can do everything! She can act, sing, host and dance. Isn't she perfect? So I guess this movie was made for me. It was cheesy at times but it didn't bother me it made me smile so that was all I cared about. All in all I enjoyed the movie!

Footloose

I love movies like these! Any movie with a dance theme is a must watch for me! They are movies I could watch over and over again. It makes me jealous; the way they move, the way they feel the music, the way they're so flexible its unreal. I so wish that I could dance like them. Even though I haven't watched the original version I guess I have no right to say much about it but I'm pretty sure I will also like the original. maybe one day I will watch it. But so far this is another one of my favourite movies along with Step Up 3 which I have watched too many times.

LOL

A movie starring Miley Cyrus and Demo Moore, about a teenage girl living a life of pain, happiness, love. A movie thousands of girls can relate to and fall in love with. Showing the connection and development with family and friends. A girl experiencing the things a teenager would maybe experience from fights with her mum to being cheated on. To taking drugs and losing her virginity. A teenage life on the big screen. 

For me it was an all time favourite. A movie where I could cringe, laugh and cry. A perfect movie for me. I fell in love with it from the first scene. Especially with a perfect soundtrack, that you will want to play on repeat. 

Hearts on fire - Jonathan Clay

Somewhere only we know - Keane

Little Sister - Jonathan Clay

Everybody - Ingrid Michaelson

The Big Bang - Rock Mafia ft Miley cyrus

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

One of the most inspiring books I've ever read! I believe that everything happens for a reason and this book backed me up. An old man before reaching heaven is confronted and gets to meet five people in his life; some strangers other family or friends. He is then shown why they entered his life. There are so many things that you can learn from this book. One is that all the people in your life are there for a reason whether they did good or bad to your life...I guess if you look close enough then you can see the real reason other than that just let it be shown to you. Don't go looking for it! 

Ten things we did (and probably shouldn't have)

I remember reading this book and I fell in love! I read this book at first because of the title. There are things we have all done that look back and thing maybe we shouldn't have done that. I have no regrets but sometimes that phrase pops into mind. Just like her we have all done crazy, silly things like lie. Which is something we've all experienced. But its a book that a lot of girls can relate to! Just like the movie LOL. 

Universal Studios: L.A.

If you like Fast and Furious...check this out! 

Disney Land: Castle

San Francisco

I never really wanted to go to SF I wanted to go the Philippines  that year. Every two years we go to the Philippines that was the year we were supposed to go. But no I didn't regret. No it wasn't a waste of time. It was the best!! Going to California made me realize I really want to go to New York, I really want to go Brooklyn and Manhattan. It's a must! 

Las Vegas

Its Las Vegas! Back in 2010 my mum sister and I flew flew to San Francisco then to L.A. then officially driving all the way to Las vegas. It was one of the best experiences ever. I LOVE THE CITY!! With bright lights, tall buildings herds of people and just the atmosphere. it was a memory never to be erased. Although I was still young I enjoyed atmosphere and the scene rather than the heart of Las Vegas...No Drinks, No Parties, No Gambling.

Bohol

Chocolate Hills was one of the places I've always wanted to visit and it was worth it! Though they said its better to go during the rainy season where the hills actually look like chocolates. Ah well! Maybe next time...

Bantanyan Island was so far one of the best beaches I've ever been too! Its known as a virgin island, so white sand, clear blue sea and a scarce number of tourists. 

Sagada

Above are the hanging coffins which is what Sagada is famous for. This is their way of burying people as they believe the way we were born is the way that we die which is in the shape of a fetus; this is why the coffins are quite small. Awesome right?

      Can you believe before entering one of the caves they had coffins in the entrance! Creepy right?

In the mountains they don't have everything we have such as microwaves, ovens and freezers or fridges. So we were shown the improvised way of cooking everyone's favourite...CHICKEN!!! A can was placed on top of the chicken and then was set fire to on the outside so just like an oven it heats whats inside. It was served with fresh tomatoes and onions with no seasoning or toppings. 

Can you believe I actually fit in here? We actually couldn't believe it! But hey anything is possible! For those who are up for anything especially adventures this is the best place to go. 

My first time to see a sunrise it was kind of pretty but for me its a great romantic place so its best to experience with someone special!!

And here it goes?

Here goes the two weeks of hell. Where I know I will be undergoing stress. I pray that I can make it and that it goes by so fast. This week is my last week in 1st term of college the week after I have my finals after failing less than half of my pre-lims exam I hope that I can survive. All weekend I've been watching movies as if theres no tomorrow. Starting from What to expect when you're expecting, to Footloose, The Five Year Engagement, Cabin in the Woods and Battleship. All where super great movies! I can't believe we finished all these movies in 2 days. But this marks a a time for a busy week ahead. Great!  

Keep Calm Keep Calm Keep Calm

I haven't been able to sleep in days. I have so much on my mind that doesn't need to be. I really need to find a way to relax. To chill. To not think about anything. Just something small can make me crazy I hate it. I wish it would all change, I wish I would learn to stay calm and not to worry. I really wish I could do that. It might not show on the outside but on the inside its like water boiling! I feel like I'm going crazy; I have nothing to worry about at all. 

Everythings the way it should be. I won't change a thing but yet I can't cope with the situation so where does it leave me? What am I supposed to do? How do people get rid of stress, this life is crazy how do people keep up with it. I really admire those who study, study, study non-stop. I admire those who just get high grades in general. 

"Sometimes you have to face the dark side so you can see the light up ahead."

Round and Round and Round We Go...

Back to school tomorow! No more long weekends. Back to another busy, stressful, unhealthy week. 3 quizzes and 1 report lie ahead of me this week. I can manage this! I miss the weekends where I could be on tumblr all day, where I wouldn't be worrying about anything the upcoming weeek, where it doesn't matter what time I sleep or how many hours of sleep I get.

My weekends consists of waking up on a saturday morning completing all homework, eating breakfast and chilling with my cousin with movies and food. Followed by a sunday of preparing my stuff for my dorm and making the most of the hours that I have left in the house till I return back to my dorm. My weekends go by so fast it's like I'm getting nearer and nearer to... I don't know what. 

Time is my enemy.

Time is the devil.

Time is the end of me.

Time why?

Time?

Where has time gone?

"Time, where did you go? 
Why did you leave me here alone? 
Wait, don't go so fast 
I'm missing the moments as they pass."

Where has time gone? Why does it go so fast? I'll be 18 soon I don't even remember being 13. I can never seem to keep up with time. Even weekends go by like its just yesterday. I want to sleep but its a waste of hours, a waste of a day a waste of time. Sometimes you just want the world to stop a but you know give you some time to process everything to adjust to think. 

Reality VS Myself

And when will I be brought back to reality?

When everything comes crumbling down?

When being in heaven is like being in hell?

When the truth slaps me in the face...

Keep Calm And Carry On

The sound of your voice against my ears, that accent of yours makes me want to melt. 

Makes me want to be with you forever, but a fantasy it is.

I don't live in reality I live a dream because I know we'll be going nowhere. 

I am full of dreams all I think is about tomorrow; oh how I will be there. 

You know you cross my mind like the rain hits the ground, hard but eventually it will go away.

Conversations I want to last forever, conversations for you is just a company.

But you know the pain is worth it, the pain is nothing.

Everything we go through will eventually find its place.

Lets just carry on...

Keeping strong

If I pour out all my feelings will you care?

If I cry will you wipe away the tears?

If I am alone will you comfort me?

If I run out of words will you speak for me? 

If I fall will you catch me? 

This life I am living is hard but I am still here. I haven't given up but I don't want to be alone anymore. I feel like I need a push. My friends and family are my backbone, the ones that keep going. I miss those times where they would just push me with their words. I miss the long talks and just having someone to comfort me. 

It never ends...

Try getting this far? Try being in my shoes? You never really do know what people feel unless you're in their shoes. You might be able to relate but you will never feel what they feel. Getting this far I can't imagine going back. This is it. This is what I've wanted I travelled this far. I left family, friends and easy and comfortable life. Now I am busy I have so much in my life but I feel like something is missing. I know that I am blessed, I have everything I need but not everything I want. I am mess but I am holding it in. 

I travelled from England to the Philippines I am here without my mum and friends. I stay in a dorm where I find it hard to adjust; to sleep, to eat, to study. I miss having someone to talk with. Life to me is nothing without conversations, with people to talk to, with people to just be with.

One thing I hate most is being alone. I can be alone and I can be independant but what is life when you're spending it alone. Life to me is about sharing moments, sharing you're feelings, sharing knowledge, sharing your experiences.

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. " -One Tree Hill 

Smile.

Yes I can smile. Yes I can cry. Yes I may hurt. Yes I feel pain.

I am positive. I am strong. I am here. 

Not going back. Not turning around. Not giving up.

I will hold my head up high. I will move forward. I will keep on moving.

Yes I have what I need. Yes I can do this. 

A life full of so many good things. 

I am blessed so I accept that. Life is a challenge.

We play the game. Jump over the obstacles. Keep on running. 

Smile. Smile. Smile. Smile. Smile.

Otherwise where does it leave me?

All I need is a little company

I want someone to talk to I miss those times when I had heart to heart conversations with my friends. I miss the times when I could cry on the phones to my friends and they'll tell me everything will be ok. 

"Sometimes getting what you want makes you miss what you left behind."

The Truth

I don't want to lie. I am homesick and I would do anything just to be home right now. To be able to hear the voice of my family to feel their hugs. I would not recomment any live one to do this. Yes it will make a stronger person but its the worse thing anyone could feel. Its a waste of time being away from family and friends as we only live once and spending your time with family and friends is priceless. I want to go back but I know I can do this. I hold my breathe everyday and count down everyday. I can't believe I've come this far. Its crazy! I hate how the people such as my family and friends are not by my side experiencing and seeing what I am goign through. Although I know they are supporting with me and eventhough they are so far away they believe I can do this. 

What keeps me here

The weekend is what I always look forward to be home with family in a bed thats comfortable in a house full of memories. The most simplest things can make me happy because we should just appreciate everythings that comes our way. Wherever I go I've never been alone. I always have someone to talk, text or call. I am never alone. 

I enjoy my life and am happy with everything. Yes it is hard to be strong, to keep on going. I am still here. I will always be here. The dreams that I have are so close. I want them so bad I am prepared to take on anything.

Staying in a dorm is like hell. But I hold my breath and can manage it. Day by day I count down but I keep on trying. Giving all I can. Giving all I have. 

"Sometimes it's hard to see the lines we've drawn. Until we cross them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back. And give us something to hold on to." -Gossip Girl 

So the story of my life goes...

So the story of my life...never stops. I will always be here standing strong. Being blessed is what makes my life the way it is. 

"A dream is like sky diving...hold me back and ill never experience it hold me back and I may regret it." -Elizabeth Jackson