Two More Days To Go

15th birthday back in 2009 when I was still in London

16th birthday back in 2010, my last birthday celebration in London

Here I am now two more days to go and I will turn 18. Back in London I was used to waking up on a school day (as my birthday would always hit a weekday). I would wake up to find a banner and all my gifts layed out. It was always done by mum she lay all my presents out with the banner. I would always be excited to see this even though it was just twice she did this it always made me feel special. My mum had made an effort, especially as I had loads of presents. It showed how many people remembered my birthday! I used to always love the gifts I was given usually because I asked for it. However no matter what I would recieve I would be over the moon with it. 

Even though my birthday is not until saturday I decided to treat my friends to BonChons. I know that that is their favourite restaurant as that is where we always eat after p.e. I was so excited when there were loads of free spaces I was pushing the door that I was supposed to pull. We had a great time! I nearly felt like crying as they surprised me with a cake. That was the best bit. I wasn't expecting anything in return but it made me think no matter where I go I am blessed with friends. I wasn't expecting to do that. I felt even closer to them and it felt so good to be surprised especially with cake. I'm super excited to have cake on my birthday I guess I had it earlier this time around.

Back in London I would wake up with that surprise. Here in the Philippines it's different. I would have less presents. But I remember last year... I first went to eat at a Japanese restaurant with my cousins friends and my auntie where we they gave me french macaroons. That was the first part. The second part I spent it with my family; my cousins, my auntie and uncle. We went to eat out in a Italian restaurant with cupcakes as birthday a cake, followed by a movie. I then went shopping with my auntie, just me and her. It's so different to what I used to experience in London. 

Our family tradition for anyone's birthday back in London was KFC, with pancit (noodles) and cake. We would all take pictures and eat together. That was the best. However I have learnt to adapt and just take in different ways of celebrating my birthday. No matter what it is though I always have the best time because I always have those special people there celebrating it with me. I say everyday to my self that I am super blessed... and I can wish for nothing more! 

Finally found you

I liked his music back then and I like his music now. Growing up I used to listen to him in the car due to my mum being a lover of his songs. That was what she played every time to his songs, which made me used to listening to his song. Don't get me wrong I did like his songs, but as getting older I developed a crush on him. Not only has he always made good songs back now and then, he's so HOT! I've never not liked any of his songs. Not because of the way he looks, but because his songs has meaning to it. I remember in Hong Kong I watched on MTV how he developed into such a great artist. How his songs have changed to adapt to the audience that he performs to. He hasn't gone wrong. Not even once... from my point of view that is .

McFly!!!!!

It's so good to hear them sing again. I wasn't a super huge fan but I did listen to them and I did like their songs. But if I had to pick between them and lets say One Direction I would pick McFly although they are a different genre. McFly are my cup of coffee. This song is different to what they used to sing before. But I guess the music industry has changed so I guess they had to change their type of music too. But it's good! I actually like this song; it's what I'm looking for.

Republiq @ 18

I've been looking forward to going clubbing since I was 15 and I'm super excited for next week. Hopefully I actually get to step foot in Republiq. Hopefully my friends and I get in. Me definetly as I am the legal age. I can't believe I am saying that! But yes I will be legal to go to clubs and drink next saturday WOO!!!

Dream Away

Preface

He held me. Just standing there saying our goodbyes. He was just exagerating; we would see each other soon. Letting go wasn't hard because I was leaving. I wasn't throwing away our past or what we had together. As we let go I trailed along to the boarding gate. I don't know what I want. I don't know where I'm going. Though all I know is that ever since I could think I didn't want to be here in London.

I want to travel...

I want to experience...


http://www.wattpad.com/9139567-dream-away-preface

What do I do now...

No more free time, yet I'm sitting here wasting the free time I do have. I'm nearly 18 and I still feel and act like a 13 year old. I feel I haven't lived my life like I should. Although I made my own decision and travelled so far I still feel like this isn't enough...
                                           

                                             What do I do now...

For the Love of Family

And I only know one love

To love deeply and unconditionally

It happens, right befor your eyes

Now its my family, I love


Not those who were once strangers

Not those who just appeared

But those who came and never left

But those who stayed and never turned around

Now its my family, I love


I will never feel something missing

Because everything's here

The love that my heart holds

Is nothing compared to others

Now its my family, I love


So here I am crying my eyes out. Why do I always look for a boyfriend. A boy that can love me. Why do I always look for a boyfriend. A boy that can love me. Why do I always look for inspiration? Speaking to my grandma on the phone made me feel so loved. Through everything I've been through my friends have been there but my grandma has been there as a role model as someone who has never given up on me. She keeps me going. She keeps me strong. You know that feeling where someone loves you so much that you don't know what to do in return. That when a loved one gets hurt all you care about is that they will be ok and happy. And your views about that person who hurt your loved one deeply has changed so deeply.

There is one thing I've learnt about being in the Philippines and that is the value of family. I thought about myself and now all I think about is them. I don't like seeing my sister get hurt or hear my grandma crying. I want to do so many things I don't want anyone involved. Sometimes you don't know who you can trust. Sometimes you don't know who's really there.

I want to save them from the pain. I want to be there and make everything ok.

My Sister and I

My sister and I...don't always get along

One quiet, one loud

Both weak but strong

My sister and I...use to hate each other

Separated, far far away

Together we grow strong

My sister and I...oh how I miss her

You know that feeling where you have so much anger you just want to hit something. I feel that. It runs through my vains, through to the very tip of my nerves. I was once friends with the enemy and now all hell breaks lose. People will get what they deserve. People will learn there lessons.


"Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change." 
James Russell Lowell 
http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_anger2.html#pTGVa0vejzrexV4G.99 

They don't know about us - One Direction

"People say we shouldn’t be together

We're too young to know about forever

But I say they don’t know what they talk talk talkin’ about

(Talk talk talkin’ about)

Cause this love is only getting stronger

And I don’t wanna wait any longer

I just wanna tell the world that your mine 

Girl

Oh

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

One touch and I was a believer

Every day gets a little sweeter

It’s getting better

Keeps getting better all the time girl

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/one_direction/they_dont_know_about_uThey don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know how special you are

They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart

They can say anything they want

Cause they don’t know about us

They don’t know what we do best

That’s between me and you our little secret

But I wanna tell 'em

I wanna tell the world that your mine girl

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you's

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

(Feels so right)

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know about the things we do

They don’t know about the I love you

But I bet you if they only knew

They will just be jealous of us

They don’t know about the up all nights

They don’t know I've waited all of my life

Just to find a love that feels this right

Baby they don’t know about

They don’t know about us

They don’t know about us"

                             Lyricsmode.com

I love this song! I wish I could relate to it though. Sadly I don't have a love life and I don't know when I will have one. I guess I'm the opposite to attraction... I repel guys away from me. But you know what life is good. I am blessed with family, great friends, a good school, education. That is everything that I need. I feel like I am always blessed as I am healthy and I have people there for. I've never been alone. I have felt alone before but the when I turn around there will always be someone there for me. 

To Study or Not to Study

Right now I should be sleeping. Tomorrow I have no class which means a long weekend for me. I have so much to do. I just don't want to sleep because if I do the day ends and that means everything will just fly by again. I always get left behind by time, everything feels like it just happened. I can't even believe I made it to 2nd sem. I failed 2 subjects I knew I wouldn't pass everything in fact I was expecting to get kicked out. But I have such strong faith I was like "God wouldn't do that to me." I prayed so hard...the thing I always pray for is that I graduate from UST as a journalism student. I find it so hard to study I don't care about my grades I just care whether or not I pass or fail all of my subjects. Its so hard for me to get super high grades, the only thing I believe in is that I will graduate.

Since I was a child I could never imagine life without graduating. All I want to do is graduate and I will be so happy. It will be the biggest achievement for me. For anyone it should be the best thing that could happen as other people don't have the opportunity to study or they just give up. They don't want to study. I don't like studying but I want to graduate. I just wish I had inspiration...

“We do what we have to so we can do what we want to” 

― James Farmer

Lets fall in love all the time!

From the movie A Cinderella Story: Once Upon a Song. Its the second time I've watched this movie. I watched it today with my dorm mate. We were screaming, giggling and pinching eachother. This movie was released in 2011 but I only found out about it on sunday when I watched it on HBO. It's now officially one of my favourite adaptations of Cinderella. I love the story. I love the leading man...Freddie Stroma. I love the leading lady. I love the movie.

I really love movies which can make me laugh, cry, cringe 'kilig,' and feel like I'm falling in love. Its as if you're the leading girl in the movie that's what I love. I've never been in love but I imagine being in love every time I watch movies like this. I could watch it over and over again.

I picked this song as it is one of my favourite songs from the soundtrack. It's so sweet and makes you want to live your dreams. Especially when I found this video.
(November 07, 2012)

Elixr

I am a huge fan of Hilary Duff! I absolutely loved her, she was my idol back when I was a child. So I was really excited to see she had written a book. I started the book during my 1st sem at college but then I was too busy and had so  much to do. I planned on saving it for sem break. Even though I started it during school days I read it from the beginning again, it was a bit of a drag as it is a slow book so I didn't think I would finish it. But then I kept thinking this book was written by my idol so I had to finish it and when I got further into the book... I began to fall in love with it! I loved it! I could actually imagine it being made into a movie; it had such a good story I loved it! I want the second book I regret not buying it. I didn't buy it because I thought I wouldn't finish the first book.

:(

Dammit! Back to school tomorrow. I don't mind the whole going back to school tomorrow but back to my dorm today. I really don't want. I hate being alone...so I brand along a few movies. Like 5 movies just so that I won't get lonely. It's going to be hell later I can actually feel tears coming down, though I know it will burst out later when I'm in my dorm. So pray for me! I really wish my dorm had sockets it would make me happier I wouldn't  mind going back. But I'm on the 6th floor while the internet room/charging room is on the ground floor. Which I really hate! I don't like it! I just wish magically they would allow sockets back into the rooms.

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