Coming Back

Its been four day since I've landed here in the Philippines. I'm trying to get used to the people again, it feels so weird being back after two years. So far I've already been shopping, met up with friends and family and I finally got to try Shisha.

The people here are not as approachable and friendly as back in the Philippines, this is not new. This was my main focus when I was coming back here. I wanted to see if I fit in, if I feel comfortable being around the people here. I was so happy and relieved when I got to see my family and a few of my friends.

I don't want to relive any memories or go back to memories. I want to do everything diffrently while I'm here. My fashion sense has finally changed and I actually care now and give more effort to what I wear. I don't want to go back to the life I lived before, it would be a waste of the time I spent in the Philippines trying to change and improve myself.

Everything I do here I compare to the Philippine and I think to myself where do I prefer it most. When I saw my sister and mum at the airport it was so good to see them, I did wish my best friend was there though. When I was in the car already I was cold and I immediately thought, I prefer it in the Philippines. It doesn't even feel like I've come back, it feels like I'm just visiting. Its not great to see people from back in High School, I actually dread the fact of bumping into old faces.